Tuesday, June 23
Uneventful No More
Suddenly weight gain isn't so important.
Went to the doctors yesterday expecting a pat on the back and a job well done. Ha. Immediately they did the internal u/s to check my cervix length. What had been long, closed and perfect the past handful of times was very, very short. As in just over a cm. Insert heartattack here.
So, my doctor comes in with the opening line : "The question is whether or not to admit you into the hospital tonight... or wait a few days." Apparently I'm dangerously close to having these babies. And as he put it... babies at 23 weeks means no babies. I cannot have no babies.
So, I'm at home on very strict bedrest til Friday. Then I'm packing a bag, going for another appointment, and very likely being admitted to the hospital for steroids and a very long extended stay.
Needless to say, we're shocked and I'm terrified. I don't want to fail these babies. He told me to call immediately with changes or anything or contractions. I have never had a baby.... I don't know what those are!!!!!! So, while I was terrified of the notion of the hospital, I'm actually anxiously looking forward to it simply because then I won't have to worry that I'll miss something. I'll be constantly monitored and taken care of and these babies will be in the best possible hands.
But I just hope and pray and wish that they'll hang on until at least 30 weeks.