Thursday, June 25

scared

23 weeks and 5 days.  I'm still here.  Tired of laying down but doing exactly what the doctors told me to do.  :)  The babies are still doing their kicking/punching/headbutting things inside.  I still love it, but I have to admit that every kick scares me a little.  Sure, it assures me that they're still in there and healthy, but I'm so scared that I'll get so attached (more so than already) and something will happen.  I've lived the past few days in constant fear that I would miss something and that these babies would come way too early.  I can't have that... it's been too long and we've come so far and the idea of starting over is just too scary.  These little guys are meant to be my little guys.  I'm supposed to be caring for them in a few months.  They're not supposed to be in danger.  My body isn't supposed to be making things difficult.  .... it's just scary.

7 comments:

Carrie said...

It is scary! But by doing exactly what your doctor told you to do, you are doing what is best to keep your boys where they belong. I'm praying your cervix behaves!

Don't you have an appointment tomorrow? Crossing my fingers for good news!

Infertility is Hard said...

Thinking of you. I hope tomorrow goes well for you, and I hope you have at least another 8 weeks of pregnancy left in you.

Have faith and peace that you are doing everything in your power.

ashley said...

I've been thinking of you often since your last post. We're all so very worried for you but we have to have faith that everything is going to work out as it should, with you bringing home healthy baby boys. Keep doing what the doctors say and pray that those boys stay in there a while longer.

Jenn said...

Hang in there Stace!!! We're proud of you.

Ashley said...

Stacey, I've been thinking about you! I'm praying that everything turns out great. Please let us know..even through someone, else if you have to stay in the hospital tomorrow. ((HUGS))

Cassandra said...

Of course you are scared -- you are already attached, how could you not be?

You are being so brave. Hang in there, and good luck tomorrow at the hospital!

Morrisa V said...

I'm so sorry this is happening, you have every right to be scared. I will be keeping you in my prayers.