Tuesday, February 3


No new scenes from horror movies being practiced around here. Tonight's injection was much less bloody.

Remember me claiming to be calm, cautiously optimistic, and all that bologna? So, today the anxious, very optimistic person came out to play. The person who can't wait to test. The person who fluctuates between SURE it worked and panicked about what she'll do if it didn't. So, I'm trying to come up with a test day. Right now I am 7dp3dt. So only 10dpo. Too early to test I suppose. The official test isn't until Monday... maybe I'll test sooner than my typical Sunday though? (On Monday I'll be 13dp3dt) 

Either way, I really have no idea how I will react to bad news. I'm a little scared about that.  Or a lot scared about that.  If this is a negative, I don't know what they'll have me do.  I'm not sure I'd be able to go back to IUIs with any confidence. 

In other news, I am incredibly tired. One of the most significant signs I remember from October was that I was exhausted the week or so before.  So, of course, I'm trying not to attribute my tiredness to a symptoms... but maybe... It could also have to do with the fact that I've been staying up a lot later than usual to get school work done.  Or maybe...   Other than that, just a few cramps.  Nothing crazy... but enough to make me a little nervous.

Tomorrow I have my dermatologist appointment- or "Funny Freckle" appointment as I tend to call it.  I have about 3 or 4 weird freckles I am finally getting around to getting checked out.  I hope the doctor declares that they are nothing serious.  I don't need more stress right now!  :)

Tonight we're up to 120 total injections and needles thus far.  Ugh.  That's a lot for someone who hates needles!


ashley said...

Whatever the outcome is, I know you'll get through it, good or bad. Infertility tends to give us strength we never knew we had. Good luck!

Anonymous said...

I know how hard it is when your mind goes to "What if it didn't work?" Just try to stay busy, and if possible, try to hold out until the official test. (easier said than done I'm sure!)

I really hope and pray that it worked for you, but like the previous commenter said, either way, you'll get through. :-D

Shinejil said...

Oi, the cramps! That's progesterone, most likely. I'm having a blast with them this cycle. You'd think I was PMSing for the entire neighborhood...

I hope you and I enjoy some great betas, in rapid succession, next week!

And some assvice: Just be good to yourself now. Don't worry about the next step yet. You'll have time to get there after Monday.

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Ashley said...

Good LUCK!!!