Thursday, August 13
As I've said time and time again... there are good days and there are bad days.
I've been doing okay.
But I can't help but feeling like everything has been so surreal. I still cannot believe that I had another baby besides Colby. I cannot believe that we had Connor and that we lost him. I can't believe that it's been so long already. I guess I just feel like the past month has been a dream. It couldn't have happened to me... and it couldn't have happened as it did. Colby has SO quickly become my whole world and my reason for being. I guess that makes sense. But it makes me sad.
I'm not going to play the "it's not fair" game anymore. It's NOT fair, but I have to get over that because complaining isn't doing anything. I'm not the only one this has ever happened to... I have to move on. Not get over it, but move on.
I had more to write, but I can't think right now. It's a jumble in my head... I probably won't make sense of it for a long time, but I'm trying.