Sunday, April 10


Just a quick update...

The newest suggestion by the doctor covering for Dr. K is that I stay here until at least 32 weeks. (Though I am quite aware that plans change quickly around here!) I'm not arguing because I want these babies as healthy as possible and there is a great deal of peace-of-mind that comes from monitoring and checks and such.

But I am devastated. I'm missing Colby and feeling like I did this to us. Not just being here where we are... but I pushed for the two embryos. I'm putting lives in jeopardy and it's killing me. I just want these two here as heathy as possible.

And just to clarify... I did make the transition from Dr. R a while ago. Dr. R was my high risk doctor down the road at a satellite office. I was not loving her and she needed me to schedule my appt. at the ATU at BI one Friday because she had to hold office hours there as part of her rotation. As luck would have it, she cancelled her hours at the ATU and another doctor saw me that day and I quickly fell in love with everyone at the ATU, so I checked with Dr. K (my regular OB whom I love) and he told me to keep going to the ATU if I was more comfortable. So I have been going there for probably 2 months? All without ever having contact with Dr. R. It was just by chance that she was covering the ATU again on Friday when I was there for my biweekly appointment. So I don't see her regularly and do not consider her my high risk doctor anymore.

I did vent to Dr. K's covering doctor today that Dr. R was acting as if 28 weeks is "no big deal" and she thought that was ridiculous. (Thus her wanting me to be here for longer.) I told her I felt better knowing that someone agreed with the seriousness of the situation. So we'll see...


Robbie said...

Doesn't it feel so good to be listened to? So glad you have at least one doctor on your side :)

Devon said...

my heart hurts for you...i know how hard it is to be away from your baby at home. i spent 5 weeks in the hospital and it was so, so hard. i got to 31 weeks though and it was so worth it but not easy. if you are gonna stay there, get comfy...your pillow, your pjs, put pictures up. make it like home!

so happy for almost 28 -- every day is an achievement!

Susan said...

I feel much better knowing that you have a doctor agreeing with you. I am also glad that you are going to be in the hospital on bed rest and on monitors from this point forward.
Colby will be fine. He's young and in the scheme of things I don't think it will have a huge affect on him in the long run. Can he come to visit you in the hospital?
Stay positive and settle in for hopefully a long run!

Michele said...

sending loving thoughts and wishing you as close to full term as possible.

Leah said...

I was off line all weekend and am catching up on blogs, and I'm so sorry to hear that you are hospitilized. I can't imagine how hard that must be with a little one at home. I'm sure you feel torn.

I just have so much hope for you though. Everyday those babies are in that belly of yours, they are growing and that is so wonderful!!! I can't even imagine how difficult this is now, but pretty soon, you'll be a mama to 3 kids at home, and 1 kid in heaven, and Colby will have no recollection of you being away from him.

Please know that I'm thinking of you.

Jen: Proud Mom of 7 Adopted Miracle Blessings said...

Sending hugs, love, and prayers... Colby will be just fine... I completely can relate to you wanting to be home and in the hospital at the same time... I freaked out when I thought I would spend Christmas 2009 in the hospital... please try to enjoy the twins moving in your belly as much as possible- I miss that so, so much!!!! If you want to chat- please email me and I'll email my phone #-

Please keep the updates coming!!!