I don't even know anymore...

As always things are totally confusing around these parts.  

I was supposed to go to the doctors on Friday morning for bloodwork.  I was on my way... I left home at 6:20am.  Usually I leave here around 6:50am to get to work for 7:20am ish.  Anyways, it took me over an hour to get to get Rt. 129.  I didn't get there until almost 7:35!!  Then I still had the rest of the way to get to work.  Needless to say I didn't make it to the doctors on Friday.  Instead I went Saturday morning.  I went at 8:30am ish.  I had my blood taken.  La la la ... fine.

So... as always they called me and again this time started... "Well...."  I hate that.  So, I can't take the medicine.  I'm not starting Provera.  Why?  Because my progesterone levels are up to 5... either indicating that I had ovulated awhile ago and they were on their way back down or I just did and they were on their way up.  I haven't freakin' ovulated on my own in YEARS.  Not months... years!  Ahhhhhh.

Anyways, as before it's kind of an "up in the air" kind of thing... we don't know what's going on and I'm just supposed to WAIT.  I'm so FREAKIN sick of waiting!  So I'm supposed to wait until I get my period again.  But I hate waiting.  Plus I feel so WEIRD.  Before last time... with the whole not pregnant/pregnant thing .... I felt weird.  And I feel weird again.  Tired, nausea, headache, blah, blah, blah.  I hate this.  I feel like I don't ever know what's going on.  So as always I want to take a pregnancy test, but I hate the negative test thing.  

So... we wait.  That's the name of the game.   Right?  

A few more days

Can't start the next round until at least Friday.   They said that we must wait until 35ish days.    Bleh... so she said to call on Thursday and if I still haven't had Day 1 then I will have blood work on Friday.  Gleh.

Starting the next round

Tomorrow marks 30 freakin' days.

I still can't believe how completely fast these past 30 days have gone.   I mentioned that to Johnny and he said it had gone slow.  It seems fast to me though.  Fast, but not fast enough.  So tomorrow I'm going to call RSC and get the ball rolling again.  I'll probably go in for Pro.vera bloodwork tomorrow (I assume...) and then in a week and a half or so (April 3rd-8th I'm guessing) I'll be going in for Day 3 bloodwork and ultrasound... and then Clo.mid... and then a week and then testing and monitoring for a few days... then Ovi.drel... then pregnancy test!!  

Today was Easter and we went to Jean and Walt's.  Jenny was there with the babies.  I was admittedly out of it and a little down.  There have been so many babies lately (pregnancies, talk of babies, the kids at Sarah's yesterday, Gracie & Emily...) and it's been kind of upsetting.  I KNOW I shouldn't let it bother me, but it just does.  A lot.  So... I don't know how long I'll be able to go through this without telling someone else.  Someone who cares.  If this cycle fails I really don't know how I'll deal with it.  I dealt remarkably well with the whole not pregnant-then miscarriage thing.   But it's there in the back of my head.  I need this to work. ...

Jeeze,  I don't want to even read what I wrote.  It probably makes no sense.

Wow

February 23-March 20.  Has it REALLY been that long?  Seriously, time goes freakishly fast sometimes.  It's already been 26 days.  It's nice not to go have blood drawn 3 times a week.  But... if it means we're moving closer, they can take my blood every day and twice on Sundays.   :)  So... I shall call early next week and continue the moving on process.  :)

La la la

It's been boring!  Haha... waiting for the next round to start, but keeping busy with school and whatnot.  :)

Waiting for round two!

Tuesday I went in for the next round of blood work.   I had a new blood tech person... she actually did really great!  She had to move the needle when it was in my arm, but it still didn't really hurt at all which was great.  My levels had gone down to zero, so we're ready to start round two as soon as Day 1 occurs.  I'm just waiting until March 24th to call and say that I need pro.vera!  :)